Lolo Ferrari

aka Eve Valois

"I hate reality -- I want to be wholly artificial."

"All this stuff has been because I can't stand life. But it hasn't changed anything. There are moments when I disconnect totally from reality. Then I can do anything, absolutely anything. I swallow pills. I throw myself out of windows. Dying seems very easy then."

After Lolo's death in 2000, her husband told a newspaper: "She wanted to be a star, but she couldn't bear living... She often said she'd kill herself if I wasn't there, and a few times she tried... Enough people have exploited me and Lolo already. If you want me to talk any more you'll have to pay."

"She was always drinking alcohol and coffee and taking pills. She took so many stimulants that she often made herself ill. The autopsy blames an overdose of medicine but I think she had literally worn her body out."

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